Crystal Meth: Meth Drug Addiction

Question: Just started using crystal meth.....needing advice?

(Posted by: on 2010-07-23 10:06:05)

Im not sure why I even touched this drug...im 24..dont smoke weed..dont drink any alcohol...I have norco for a nerve issue in the arm..but i never abused it. I had one of the worst days in my life 6 days ago...So at night i called up my wife (weve been seperated for 6 months now because she wouldnt stop using crystal meth) And told her my story..she came up to talk to me...offered me this drug..and i smoked it..Well...6 days later i havent stopped. I have slept every night for atleast 3 hours and sometimes 7. I have two beutiful daughters who i love with all my heart and i never thought iu would betray them like this. I was NEVER a drug user..my father died from heroin So why the hell am i doing this to myself...its only been 6 days and i just havent stopped...something in my head just isnt clicking right. My daughters are with my mother in the safest and best home...but i just cannot do this to me..or my daughters anymore. I do not blame my wife because i chose to do what she gave me..i do wish she wuld have cared enough for me to just not give it to me though...I loved her with all my heart..and she is 7 months pregnant with another mans child and using meth every single day. I feel GROSS..depressed..MAD..almost psycotic at times. I know the answer should be...HEY you have babies..your fuckin retarded get off the damm drugs....and thats how i feel inside...well WTF is wrong with my dumbass brain than. I FEEL RETARDED..CARELESS..not a good father! I had my kids alone for a VERY LONG TIME...even when me and my wife were together...she was not here...It was always me and my two babies. I know there should be a great chance that i can get off ALOT easier because it has only been 6 days. I really just need some advice..Withdraws..I dont care about those..Im not scared of them..its whats in my HEAD..how im thinking..why would i do this to me and my daughters..im the parent theyve only had really since birth...Im getting off this nast shit..so PLEASE...I need some advice on why this is so mentally hard....thank you. This is coming from someone who had never even done drugs...im 25 years old..and i need help..

Posted by: Ginny Jin on 2010-07-23, 10:14:58

If you are taking drugs you are just making your situation 10 times worse. I've been in your shoes and to an extent still am, I know what you are going through, it sounds easy to say but don't let such an addictive drug take you down. That drug will seriously mess with your brain and cause you alot more suffering if you don't get help now.

Posted by: Daniel on 2010-07-23, 10:18:02

Listen. Drugs (esp. crystal meth) contain special chemicals that are very addictive. I want you to get your mind off of the drug. Also, the first thing you should do is THROW IT AWAY. Somewhere that you can't get to it anymore (like garbage can). If you keep your mind off of smoking it and do something outdoors with your family you may be able to do this. If you ever have the urge to smoke it again, go to the ER right away and tell them your problem. I am asking you to PLEASE listen to this advice. I don't want you to ruin your life over this. Go to the hospital and ask for help regarding your addiction. Best wishes, Daniel

Posted by: Emily M on 2010-07-24, 04:25:59

Go to a Narcotics Anonymous meeting and tell the group what you've said in this post.

Posted by: Miss on 2010-07-24, 22:00:10

I dont suggest using drugs but i smoke weed n im a great mother just know how to handle it and dont ever bring it to ur kids home or let it effect ur life with ur kids if it does already mab u should stop or try sumthin simple thats grown not made!